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Me, that’s who!! Anyone out there as crazy as I am? I have been feeling really really down over the last few months and although I didn’t officially ”quit” WW I have certainly not but very good about weighing in so I went back today and the results ………all things considered weren’t horrible(up 2.5 lbs) this is the weight I am getting REALLY stuck at so as a Christmas gift to myself …I am re-committing to the process of healthy eating and exercise even though temptation is EVERYWHERE in December…….Ho Ho Holy Sh#t, am I nuts or can I do this!!! I seriously love food and don’t love exercise that much……..Any thoughts??

I just realized it’s December 1st..what am I crazy to try and attempt this again(this time of year!!)  I am going to take control of my eating/non-exercising ways.  I  bought a cool diet/exercise log and I am in the process of taking a personal inventory of my habits(you do this for 5 days) and then are hopefully able to figure out some of the areas that you can work that are YOUR ultimate challenges, it is a more personal and softer(more forgiving) approach…also picked up a book about doing things “one day at a time”…when did I lose sight of this, of course it has to be one day at a time but easier said than done at times…..oh well back on the horse!! Good luck to me;)

Attention fellow WW members…..so I am sitting here starving and completely out of points for the day,,,,,,and no “flex” left either!! What do I do? Any suggestions?

Well I got this recipe off The “Hungry Girl” website(which by the way if you don’t know it…it is truly awesome) I made the “Pumpkin Enchiladas” and served them to my “veggie-phobic” husband and he liked them(until I told him what they were made of!!)  Pumpkin is so rich in antioxidants and really doesn’t taste like anything when combined with the right spices, it kind of takes on the taste of what you make!   Anyways I want to try new things so off I go…….

I just got started again after not being on here for several months although I have been following WW for about two and a half months…with very little success this time(why is it so hard this time?) I need motivation and help…walking is my main exercise but I am feeling I need something else…What motivates YOU? Help..I need support and ideas!!

Yesterday when I got home I posted a blog called “Some People Really Suck” while I still remain totally annoyed that this happened at all….I decided to “walk out” my anger(went for a brisk walk)came home and read some of your wonderful and supportive comments and I just want to say THANK YOU…of course I know I am better than letting what some “OLD BAG” says get me down but man there are some days when you really don’t need one more thing added to the “pile”,am I right!?

Today I decided that I needed a fesh start and began my day with a 4 mile walk and I feel a whole lot better as a result and when I do come across this woman/or ANYONE  else who feels the need to comment on my physical appearance I will ask them (with a smile on my face) Why did you feel the need to say something like that to me? I mean honestly how can they respond…

Thank you all again I know I’ve come to the right place for suport in this BATTLE!

I decided to join up on this site a few weeks ago feeling really dejected and tired of whining to my husband(he’ll never “get”this whole food thing-his idea of “lowfat” is using margarine instead of butter-I don’t know either!!)Anyways, so I’m taking it day by day trying my best-talking with some really great supportive new friends and overall starting to feel just a little better abouth the whole new healthy lifestyle and starting to get a a handle on my feelings and daily struggles with food and then today…….WHAM……like a ton of bricks this woman remarks to one of my co-workers(while I am in earshot) how much weight I have put on and this was right when I came back from an afternoon walk…well to be frank I felt like I got kicked in the stomach and really felt like crying and started second guessing myself and all my efforts. I guess my point is….1)Why do people feel that this is kind of behaviour is ok and where do they get off commenting on other people’s physical appearance-I mean for crying out loud I KNOW I’VE GAINED WEIGHT-most people do know and don’t need strangers pointing it out to them.

2)And perhaps more importantly, Why is this bothering me so much or why am I letting it bother me so much especially since I know I am on the right track and have been listening all the great advice and kind words from my buddies?

I am sure I will feel better about this once I really think about it, I think I really needed to get it out…on the bright side I DIDN’T hit any Drive-thrus on my way home or dive into a bag of Doritos yet….the night is young!

Thanks for listening ……………. M

I don’t really have any news today just thinking about the real commitment it takes to do this and how I need to take it day by day and stop thinking in terms of …..”I want this FAT OFF RIGHT NOW…”It is really hard but for myself I have to think about each day and NOT put myself  into social situations(restaurants and parties)until I am much more comfortable-I know there are ways to get around this and it is all about adopting a “healthy life change” but I mean really when you are just starting out(albeit my hundredth new start)do you really want to go out with all your skinny minny friends/family and just have a “2 point” glass of wine and a salad without croutons/and of course dressing ON THE SIDE…while everyone else is eating something delicious followed by dessert…I say DON’T EVEN BOTHER for now…at least I am not… and same goes for buying clothes,I am going to wear what I have for now and save up for something I really love in a much smaller size!!

I have only been on this “buddy” system for less than a week and already I feel much better-knowing that others are having the same challenges as me but my big question for everyone is WHEN will I stop waking up every morning and my first thoughts being about my weight , in fact I think about it all day until it is time to go to bed(usually hungry)and then same thing the rest of the week….do I need to obsess this much to lose weight?Is it normal to feel this way because to be honest I would love to have just 1 day where I didn’t think about it at all-I mean even when I was a lot lighter I still felt fat…When,when,when will this STOP?

I just returned from a really quick trip to the States (I live about an hour and a bit from the border) and WOW you guys are so lucky to have all these fun “100 calorie” snacks and cool snack bars…I mean we have “some” stuff but you have way more than we do!! I know you can’t make a steady diet of these things but  I love to have something to snack on that won’t totally de-rail my efforts, I don’t know about you but I think everyone needs a “treat” now and again! I tried these new CHEX TURTLE BARS (2 pts on WW)-just awesome…my new PMS EMERGENCY snack!!